so. i decided to change the name of my blog. because. i think holding onto hope fits me better right now. i'm definitely still stepping heavenward. maybe even more so now. but, the closer i get there, the more painfully aware of my flaws i become. as of now. i feel like i'm doing more wrong than right. but, i know that he who began a good work in me,will carry it unto completion. so i'm holding onto that hope. holding onto hope is actually the name of a band i just discovered. and i'm not sure what it means to them. but this is what it means to me. i'll try to update this thing more frequently. just in case anyone does bother to check it.
life has been busy lately. i've worked a lot. and played a lot. and procrastinated a lot. but, as far as the procrastination goes, i work better on school work under pressure, so i'm not too worried, it's just a habit i'll work on breaking next semester.
today I worked at baptist for a few hours, making phone calls, then worked at camp for six hours, keeping 1st graders in line. it's a difficult task, but it's a learning experience definitely. and now i'm better equipped to handle difficult situations. atleast i just had 11 today. my record high is 17. me and 17 six year olds, now that's somethin'. take that, and multiply it with 11 boys, most of which butt heads, 1 child with really bad adhd, and possibly autism, and one that's not even 6 yet, so he's pretty much clueless, chatty girls, one who may be possessed, not really but that child is something else.. and you have a day in the life of meghan at camp northern light.
it's not as bad as it may sound, i really do enjoy it. but it does wear me out.
then after camp, i headed over to the clemmers house for tlc. it was fun. good to know i'm still young enough to be able to eat a bowl of icecream and then jump on a trampoline with my kids. haha, 18 sounds young, but i sure do feel old sometimes. it'd prolly help if i excersized more often. haha.
but all in all, today was good.
